FireflyGenie (Dennis)

2011-04-20T23:51:00.007+08:00

Suppressed my feeling for now....
I'm going to bet everything in on her as i courting her again....
I'm going to bomb everything in to woo her again.....
Just hope that i will succeed in the end....
If the end it turns out my fear came true...then i'm just gonna breakdown and .... at that time ba
So now everything just gonna suppress it...

Tomorrow she going out with marcus....
When i say i want go with her she say don't want meet me....
She wanna go with marcus instead.... It's hurts me...
But i'm no stat to stop her seeing who anymore so no choice..... hais

Anyway think gonna stop blogging from now on ba...
Wait till the day she accept me again then i will come back here post ba...
Really hope she will feel for me again... Hope everything i do will not be in vain....
That all for now~~

I want the love we once had back....

2011-04-19T09:42:00.010+08:00

Yesterday went out with her to bugis....
When see her was really happy but my heartache alots....
Really no appetite to eat so eat a little in seoul garden.....
Just wanna look and and see her every moment...
Thinking alots of things... Why everything come to this.... Really feel like bursting out to tears....
After everything send her back home....
Really can't bear to see her go off....
She told me on the phone that she had totally given up on me..... It really hurts alot....
Feel like taking 1 knife and stab through my heart....
Whateva i done now didn't move your heart at all or just abit change in your thoughts??
Really no mood to continue study or do anything more....
Serene Lim i really scare that the day happen that you fall for another guy...
I really scare i really scare that the days come....
I really scare that days come you will still not accept me....
I really wanna be with you again serene...
It really hurts damn lots to see the way the things are now....
It really hurts and pain that to see that the love you once had for me is totally gone...
It really hurts alots i cried from day to night whenever i think about it....
Serene i love you i really do... I really hope you will give me 1 chance and accept me again...

I really wanna be with you...
Are you willing to once again???

2011-04-18T11:57:00.004+08:00

Today it's my birthday but i ain't happy at all....
She just scare of being with me anymore.... No matter how i beg her or wat she just reject....
Why why heaven like to play tricks on me....
The girl i love most she don't want me anymore hahahaha
When i post on her fb she delete she just wanna draw the line over between us so much...
I'm just a rubbish dump
Can i just sleep forever and don't wake up??
Really sick & tire of this world already...
It's so hard to breath...

2011-04-17T10:55:00.009+08:00

Everything my fault....
Now she treating me very cold..
It just the same way and feelings 4 years ago when siying did the same thing to me....
This is the retribution for taking her for granted ba....
Feeling so sad and emo this few days...
For the past few days very sleepless...
Just went to see her blog, the past post it about all about me the good memories....
Haha really feel so pathetic when she love me ttm i take it for granted but now she don't want me anymore i die die want her... Ha
I really don't wanna lose her nor give her up....
she heck care me... Really feel heartbroken ttm FML....
After 1 month it gonna see the answer but i know really no hope anymore... hahaha feel like hiding 1 corner n xxx hais.....

2011-04-14T01:38:00.004+08:00

Was waiting for her call n msg for more then 4 hours but no she didn't call wait till i msg her then she say just done her thing wtf everytime got so coincidence meh joke...
I don't msg she bo done i msg she just done what a joke.....
Wanted to tell her alot of things that happen in my school today when she call but no she don't want call or msg at all..
She say she was waiting for me to msg her instead when she made piss off of her in the morning
So i piss off still need to msg & entertain her instead of her msg me uh WTF
Making me fucking piss off.... Totally over my limits..
Say me childish.. In her eye everything i do is childish...
She change her contact name from dear dear to dennis nothing wrong with it?? She just dunno how i feel n think... she just think it a small matter...she say i'm just childish...
Last time she go back home from school or just finish school she will msg or call me but now never at all...
In her eye i'm always just a no manners attitude illbrat guy....
Everything i done before, in her eye it always wont be more then 10.....
Her sleep is always important & she can sleep peacefully like nothing happen....
Whateva i say her she will just reply wateva, yea yea or lan lan with me... It feels like nothing to her...
Last time when i say harsh thing to her she will cry or sad but now no nth like no emotion at all...
She just don't give a damn thats all...
Her love for me n for his will always be different... Why cant it be the same..

It's starting to feels like she the second version of siying
I hated her........
Why cant she just be the old caring girl that i use to being with...
She just don't know how much i wanted her to change back....
She just don't know most of the nights i cant get to sleep is because of her...
She just only know how to complaint only...
She say i don't love her... I do love her alot just that i don't show it out nia is that wrong??
Have she ever go and think how i feel?? No she don't
Just wanted a person to accompany me & be there for me why it it so hard to find 1...

Sometimes really feel like giving up this rs & go find another 1...
Anyway think she not gonna be the same as before le ba so hopefully soon i can forget the feeling for her and then give up ba...

Feels so insecure...
Feels so lonely....
That the reason why i don't open up to anybody...
So much things had happen school n etc.. Sometime really cant take it anymore feel like crying but stopped myself not to...
No 1 will be there for me....
I will always be alone...
Will i ever be free??

2011-04-11T02:51:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I really don't like the way she is now.....
She changed quite alot this year...
But she didn't know about it.....
Say 1 wrong word would lead to chaos.....
Just now say her jinx and she get worked up shout at me on the phone....
At first was joking with her as she didn't bother to listen me talk...
It can prove it by I call her 4 times jinx and she only her once....
I know it my fault but just don't wanna admit only....
Anyway for the past 9months I had hurt her more then anything else....
I know she regret of being with me...
Which moron would wanna fall for poor, failure, attitude, selfish, illbrat and ugly guy?
If time could rewind I think she wouldn't to know me already ba....
If she gonna leave then I not gonna stop her or anything since she suffer so much when being with me so no point....

Anyway later on have school but not going as is the stupid orientation introduce the classmate n etc waste my time... I hate it till the max... Not gonna made friends this term just gonna be anti social n concentrate on the module ba.....

2011-04-10T02:26:00.002+08:00

Sometimes really feel damn irritating when she call for awhile like just now...
Whole day never call then at "12+am" call and talk for 10~15mins sibei bo liao sia might as well mai call better??
Fucking lazy to entertain you sia... lame
Anyway 1 more day to hell.... Feel so epic...
Up till now still dunno what to do.......
If only time could be rewind~~

2011-04-08T18:24:00.002+08:00

2 more days till school reopen...
Everything gonna start from th beginning again..
Really hate it, only fail 2 fucking module only need to retain for 1 year wtf
Really don't feel like continuing but somehow wanna study FML
When the fuck did i become so chui??
After secondary school, result getting worser n worser....
Really fucking damn frustrated on whether Monday wanna go to school...
If go everything will be seem odd and weird to me.... FML

2011-04-07T00:38:00.002+08:00

Frustration, despair, Sadness....
Everyone got their timetable while I'm the only person who don't have...
Guess I had been drop out ba...
I work so hard to get in although this course it's not what I want....
It's feel like my life goal has vanish....
She pour cold water on me when she heard that news from me....
The first thing she say is go find work didn't console me... Everytime keep nag ask me to go work fucking irritating...
Really dunno what to do from now on.... FML

2011-04-06T19:09:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was 9th month anniversary with her..
She came my house and watch disney mermaid show till 5+ then went to Pioneer Mall Kofu eat dinner... Went back home after see her off at Pioneer MRT station...
She wrote me a letter... inside write etc etc then got 1 part she wrote that i'm not her most love....
If i'm not wrong she last time told me that she love me more then him?? or i'm wrong?
Anyway didn't surprise that she wrote that, so many things had happen feelings fade so no surprise..
Whateva ba~
Just put on a fake smile and pretend never saw or heard ba....
Hmm this year birthday really cmi...
Now 1 more problem coming out, cash -.- really chui...
1 more week hope can solve the money problem ba....

2011-04-05T00:59:00.003+08:00

She say if 1 day i leave her and her ex ask her to go back to him she will be willing to go back without a second thought... and she love her ex the most....
Really dunno what to say... just feel that being single is better ba...
My Birthday Plan fail... Regine and Shawn cant make it.. only left 4 more people to confirm nia
My friends part i'm just too lazy to ask...
Hais this year birthday chui like fuck....
Forget it ba....
Last week of holiday next week school reopen but havent even get the timetable...
Anyway hope everything will go smoothly this term n my brain pls wake up don't be sleep mode anymore pls....
I don't wanna fail again...

2011-03-31T21:12:00.003+08:00

For the past few weeks, had been staying at home using com whole day like a no life dog...
Bored till the max... Wanted to go out but no money -_-
Today checked the exam result... All fail, expected it but still felt sad when saw the result...
Anyway, 18 more days till my birthday...
This years it fall on Monday... So gonna plan it on sat or sun ba...
Every year damn looking forward to that day as it's my only happiest day on the year..
Hope this year planning will go smoothly as i plan like last year :)

2011-03-28T04:42:00.002+08:00

Had alot of thoughts for the past few days...
Memories of the past, the present....
All felt so weird about it....
Anyway, don't feel like continue to write so shall stop here as i'm too tire already....

2011-03-20T17:44:00.004+08:00

Just when i thought i everything ok already then this things happen.....
Her pattern really more then badminton....
Go put her relationship status to private....
When i saw it, it was... and bloody piss off wtf is this...
Then i go say her she shoot me instead... she say: "i'm just following what you did only"
When did i put private again?? Yesterday i did show what....
She say in the past i put... That time u ask me show i already show liao now you do this....
Then she cant say win me already she give more excuses :"Cus ytd i search n search thn u nv put"... Wtf just now say in the past now change to yesterday liao....
You just don't want admit you're in the wrong just wanna drag me in no matter what...
You just wanna find fault with me then you are satisfied uh??
Say me bastard then what about you?? Cb kia?? who say 1 thing do another thing?
You say that you don't know the fuck i'm thinking... this sentence should be use on you instead....
You are the 1 who want back our relationship badly after you throw that ring back to me then why are you doing this???
You ask me to treat you better from now on but what the fuck are you doing now??
Suan le ba forget it.... really no point arguing with you anymore... you are just not the serene lim who i used to know....
Really fuck this holiday... why can't i just have a peaceful holiday??
My father like that this 1 also like that FML -'-

2011-03-18T01:30:00.004+08:00

It's 1.31am and it first day of being single again...
Should i feel sad or piss off?? lol
But now in my mind damn piss off of her.... She go call her dog friends and tell them everything cb then after that call back nb...
Pcb i hate this type of people FOAD -'-
No use of retaining you back since you like your dog friends so much....
Your dog friends is always more important then me....
You listen to your dog friends more then i say....
Giving you 1 chance to take back the ring from me today but you don't want still dare ask me to give u 2 day...
What for i give you 2 days when your feelings are faded?
Wait till the day you totally faded then you break with me again uh? joke
If you love me then you would say yes without hesitation when i ask you to come take back but did you?? no you don't
When you throw the ring back to me, do you have hesitation too?? No you don't... you just throw it without hesitation...
You say that my words hurt you but did you what you say could have hurt me too?? No you just think about urself only...
And you still have the mood to "sleep" this show "HOW IMPORTANT" i'm in your heart....
If i know this would happen i should have ended it that time when my feeling for you is not so strong zzz....
FML -'-

2011-03-17T20:14:00.004+08:00

Everything ended..... although didn't expect it but nvm let it just end....
Today she came my house starting giving me jiao face then say the black color eyeliner not good...
Then after that she start to revise her work then i talk to her she give me jiao face again, then she say sat she not coming liao gonna stay at home study....
I ask her why she tell me "cause you are disturbing me studying now"..... Wtf
After awhile saw her playing her iphone for a long time it like wtf u say u wan study then now you are playing your phone.....
Then i scold her she not happy liao... After that she throw the ring on the floor and wanna walk out of my room...
So the ring didn't mean anything to you anymore right? fine
You say that you can't tolerate my attitude... fine wateva ba i realli didn't do anything wrong in the first place is u give me attitude first then still keep asking me to admit wrong....
You got your own problem in your mind then i don't have uh?
You say you will never ask for break but now you throw the ring like throwing rubbish...
I know your bloody mum will be happy to hear that you have break with me in fact you will feel relieve so fine fine i will just keep quiet n keep everything to myself....
Just gonna keep my sadness to myself not gonna cry or anything like the past...
Just gonna live the single life that i use to have like last upper year....
That the reason why i'm self centered and not trust anyone...
Promise are meant to be broken.... Nothing last forever

2011-03-16T23:57:00.002+08:00

Feeling so piss off right....
2nd time using violent on my ahgua father.....
My mum scold him and he turn around scold me instead .... when i didn't do anything wrong at all....
Keep scolding me nonstop till i cannot tolerate anymore then i went up to him and pick a fight lol....
Anyway he lose to me laugh.....
Whenever ba, anyway i really don't care this anymore just feel like picking a fight with someone only.....
Say me no manners or ill brat also can no problem also not first time hearing this things....
Even that serene stupid mother like that say me le so up to you....
After the fight i'm almost out of breathe cause all of those shouting and scolding... Guess i'm getting old liao ba.....

2011-03-11T10:48:00.001+08:00

All my problem are bullshit...
I see I see whateva that is how u bloody brain thinks then fucking carry on.....
Know your character already tell you my problem confirm 1 in 1 out what for I waste my breath n tell u n since u say it all bullshit....
Anyway, I'm just a cb Kia who treat u worst then ur ex so sua I got nothing to say...
Tonight, had to tell him to ask from aunt liao Bo Bian.....
Hope can settle it by sun ba...
Not much time left...
I gonna get u back online no matter what even if it to give up
everything....

I will forever remember this

2011-03-10T01:07:00.001+08:00

Yesterday exam over went back home came to know that the Internet connection has been cut off....
My entertainment has gone.....
Really feel likes part of me is dead.....
Not in the bloody mood to care other thing or people....
Just wanna get back the Internet for now that all.....

2011-02-26T19:18:00.003+08:00

Used to listen what i say...
Used to do whateva i say...
Now when i say things, here in the other side out
Talk back when i say her..
Ask her not to do she don't listen...
Totally rebellion...
Come to think of it, when in the past why i never rebel to xxxxxx??
Why i like a fool to listen whateva she say & ask me to do???
I'm really a joker & a stupid fool..

A rich person will always look down on poor people...
On the other hand, poor people will always jealous & hate the riches...
Poor people are always self-centered, their life & things is always far more more important then the others... I'm one of these...

Environment & people have changed me alot for the past few years..
Been through many hardships more then anyone else...
Sadness, Sorrows, Despairs, Pains, Fears... I've gone through each and everyone....
Compare to the past, now i know what i'm doing & defend myself better then last time always bullied & look down by others....
People tend to made use of me in the past, but now i made use of them instead...

This 3 days had been rotting at home like mad dog...
Tomorrow gonna rot at home again sianz half -_-.....
Holidays coming... Need to plan about it if not gonna be crazy rotting at home everyday....
Going out now so shall end it here..

2011-02-21T01:24:00.004+08:00

Don't want don't want sua wateva...
Starting to feel disgust of her....
Today every single thing she do damn disgust me alot....
Everytime insult me infront of my friends.... every single time never fail....
This time round never say her anything she insult me like shiok infront of gerald....
"Simple things i also dunno"
"Him uh he this type of people study cmi de la" Ha this call not look down on me? joke
"Next time come out from army more childish"
And somemore i forget what liao....
Feel so disgrace n disgust.... Next time when go out with friends sure wont call her out if not it will be a disgrace to myself....

Things that i told her she go tell her friend..... in fact i think almost everything she go tell her friend zzz wtf?? You like to be radio is it?
Really dunno what to say her liao...
As i say before not gonna give a damn anymore so sua.....

I know u will see this & you will yayapapaya with me again but no thx had enough of it liao keep it to urself ba.... This my blog i write what i want~

2011-02-19T00:48:00.006+08:00

Yesterday went out is a total waste of time....
Went to City Square Mall with "her" all the way kenna scold by her hit by her...
Ask me to "shut up"
Ask me to "Keep my comment to myself"
You tell me your school thing i cannot comment about it then might as well don't tell me better?? i didn't ask u to tell me
Give me lj attitude...
Say me yesterday scold u bad word when i say didn't... when only i scold on wed but u still yaya with me....
Fine fine nvm..
So i keep my fucking mouth shut yet u still beat me n ask me to talk.. I'm ur fucking dog uh??
When walk to your house u walk infront i walk behind made me feel like tailing dog...
In your house leh, charge my hp till halfway u straight away plug out the cable n charge your phone wtf?? nvm but you oi me still...
Fucking no mood to entertain you....
Rot at your house till 11+ take lift go mrt take train but u stop me shout at me, ask me where not happy give me lj attitude again keep pressing the door open.... tell u i'm running late still guai lan..
Door close u kick the door sibei zai....
Now call me n say it all my fucking fault blame me everything including the past 2 days????

Why don't use your "O" lvl brain and think???
Why i scold u for??
You never say anywords or do anything to made me piss off to start scolding you uh??
You say i broke promise then u never uh??
Last time promise me will be gentle not violent.... But now leh?
Last time i scold u didn't use any badwords but why i now scold u bad words... You urself never ask who the ones who start first??
Is u start scolding me fuck, nabei, point me middle finger u forgot?? or u pretend not to know??...
I know i show u attitude but did i scold u cb or others words last time?
I don't admit my wrong?? when the hell did i not then last time the sorry i tell u de is telling ghost uh?
Now everything u'r blaming me.....
U had change...
Now becoming more & more guai lan... u really are not the serene that i used to know...
It feels like ur "now de sibei gd friend" cannot go out with u then u come n ask me this "backup" to go out with u to occupy ur day....
I felt that u sometime abit less care or maybe totally don't give a damn liao...
Like u say few days ago la hor i this "N's" cannot compare to u this "O's" la... look down on me la, wear ITE shirt go out with u is a disgrace la hor
U changed more then me..

That Novena incident has already made my feelings for u fade alot but now day by day u'r making me fade bit by bit also....
I really dunno what the hell you are thinking anymore
Wateva ba.. u wanna blame me jiu blame ba i won't give a damn or say anything anymore.....
I already had handful of problem haven't settle liao....
Sick & tire of it....

2011-02-18T00:51:00.001+08:00

Say me 自大 Smlj coward say coward bunch of craps....
Fight for ur rights got wrong uh then might as well dig 1 hole n hide inside...
Wateva la~

My wallet going empty liao still wanna ask money from me WTF.... Even my this month hp bill haven settle leh nb...
Cb I give u then I eat lj??
Sibei dulan with this life man...
FML la cb -'-

2011-02-15T22:12:00.006+08:00

Yesterday Valentine day, meet her after school.
Went to Suntec PastaMania for dinner after that walk to Marina Square to play arcade & Prize Stage to catch soft toy, spend alot of money just to get 1 small mickey mouse key chain -.-"...
After that went to the Youth Olympic Park n the shopping center nearby dunno call what but didn't get to see the boat thing dunno at where + the hotel swimming pool -_-...
Took cab to her house after that about 11+ took train went back home...

2011-02-14T17:06:00.001+08:00

Feeling so sad & moodless now but no ones know.....
DPA drop out...
What can I say...
Who can I blame...
Suan le ba not gonna care about it anymore.....
Now on the way to city hall to meet her, hope my moodless will be gone by then ba~

2011-02-11T02:32:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was a bloody day with alot of problems....
Somehow manage to solve it....
But things won't be the same as it use to be....
Some bitch only know how to add oil & salt, fucking cb i will sure to remember it... -'-

2011-02-04T15:48:00.002+08:00

This year CNY felt so weird & epic...
Expected it to be a very good year this year but....
Every year, 2nd day of CNY should be going out but this year gonna rot at home....
Totally no mood ttm...
Everything just getting worser & worser....
Hais FML

2011-01-23T23:11:00.005+08:00

Just came back from early reunion dinner with relatives...
Alot of things in my right now...
8 cousins: 1 in SMU, 1 in poly soon going to uni, 1 going poly soon, 1 going uni after ns, 1 in O's, 2 in N's, 1 going NS, but me it's the end....
Really envious them... why can't i be just like them?? why is my brain dead??
Heard them say about their sch, NS, bought new year staff made me think alot & moodless...
Really dunno what to do now...
Everything is about $$$$$$$$.....
I'm ugly, freak, poor, stupid, hopeless...
Feel like digging a hole n hide inside.....
Pathetic

2011-01-21T01:23:00.003+08:00

I was born to be stubborn, to be a little bit bitchy, to push people, to push myself...
i was taught never to take life for granted, to live a little, to love with everything I had, to never give up, to believe in myself, but most of all
"To fight for myself"...

2011-01-15T23:02:00.004+08:00

2 more weeks to CNY....
Looking towards it but felt disappointed...
Don't think i'm gonna enjoy the festival ba...
Really pathetic to have this type of parents...
FML ttm....
Anyway somehow got 1 bad feeling about something..
Feel so uneasy whenever think of it....
我的难过说不出来...

2011-01-08T17:49:00.002+08:00

CNY coming in few weeks time....
Everyone is preparing...
Every year i'm trying the best to prepare to make it the good year for myself but this year i guess i should give up le ba....

2011-01-03T13:45:00.002+08:00

Head gonna burst soon....
Problems keep on coming.....
Today, burst to tears when thinking how my pathetic life from past to now....
Really can't take it anymore....
I gave up....

2011-01-01T20:33:00.006+08:00

1/1/11
It's a brand new day of the year...
Yesterday outing was quite ok although totally can't see the stage & a bit piss off with someone...
But the steamboat dinner i still like :D
Anw damn bored now dunno what to do rotting at home the whole day...
Feel like going out but my wallet is empty -.-"
Nvm just wish this year everything will turn out fine & smooth for me ba....

2010-12-16T01:59:00.000+08:00

A true "Friend" will be there for you whenever you need them...
A true "Friend" will help you scold back when someone is scolding you...
A true "Friend" will still contact you even though you haven been contacting them for a long time...

A "Classmate" will pretend nothing happen like he dunno you when someone scolds you..
A "Classmate" will think of you only when his/her friends are unavailable...

That is the epic difference between "Friends" and "Classmate"

2010-12-06T17:31:00.005+08:00

Heck care everything that happening around u...
Don't give a damn what other people think of u or comment about u...
Just live the way u wanted it to be...
Just live ur life to the fullest...

2010-11-06T04:45:00.002+08:00

At her house now...
It's 4.46am now n i'm still not sleeping....
Having alot of thoughts recently....
Sometime really envious other people...
Why their life so comfortable while my life is upside down like a no life king??
Having second thoughts, did i made the right choice? Did i walk the right path???
Really damn frustrated about it....
Anw gonna mia soon don't when the hell will be back blogging....
Shall end it here now...

2010-10-04T14:03:00.002+08:00

So long didn't came here to post..
Hmm life still the same as lifeless as it use to be...
Bought iphone 4 a week ago like it very much :D
As for exam gone case already...
Anw tis sat is simei exclassmate gathering can't wait for it to see them ^^

2010-08-30T00:12:00.002+08:00

Nowadays feeling so empty inside...
Maybe it because...??
Really feel like shutting myself up from the outside world....
Anyway school start later on & exams around the corner i don't think i can make it at all ba...
Hais dunno what to write anymore shall end it here..

2010-08-15T04:57:00.000+08:00

‎[I] shou[l]d be [ove]r [you] ♥

2010-08-07T03:01:00.004+08:00

Yesterday work was fine...
Hesitated when i saw Karen, was thinking what if??....
Anyway really dunno what the hell am i thinking... somehow felt that what i have done is wrong...
Really alot of things in my mind yet cant say it out....
Felt so useless..

2010-08-05T18:11:00.002+08:00

I lost control again....
Once again i show attitude to her.....
Really sry, but really don't feel like talking...
Dunno what the hell is wrong with me....
Really damn sry serene....

2010-07-29T19:13:00.002+08:00

Run just as fast as i can
To the middle of nowhere
To middle of my frustrated fears and i swear you're just like a pill
Instead of making me better
You keep making me ill

2010-07-28T00:35:00.003+08:00

2 more month is exam what am i gonna do??....
Don't have the heart to study...
Totally no interested in this pathetic course + lecturer never teach always playing his bloody laptop....
Just hope that i wont fail my modules ba...
Everyone around me change days by days.... really cant get use to it... hais

2010-07-10T02:20:00.002+08:00

Just went to your profile...
Saw you hiding away you relationship status & post made me feel so sad and emo...
Went to see your picture, when i saw how you are doing now i think back of the past...
Feeling despairs, feel like crying...
Really really feel like gonna breakdown any minute...
Why do i still care about you??
Why do i still feels for you??

2010-07-07T00:21:00.003+08:00

Feeling so depressed & emo just now...
The memories of you in the past came back as i listen 1 sad song.....
The past totally felt like a dream... really really feel like sat 1 corner & xxx...
I know what i'm doing now is totally wrong but yet i'm still doing it... I know i'm gonna be a sinner eventually...

2010-06-27T05:25:00.002+08:00

It been a long time since i post....
Having holiday now & i went back Sasa to work...
Everything was fine, life is ok somehow... work, rest, play lappy...
Feel that i had become total anti-social nowadays don't feel like talk much better not don't talk at all...
School going to reopen soon wonder how am i going to cope with my study.. totally don't think i can made it.. hope i can made it through everything ba..

2010-06-05T19:48:00.003+08:00

When the phone "Green Green", I "Pink" up the phone and say "Yellow"
"Blue" is this??
"White" do you want??
You don't "Purplely" call me, you make me angry, I will not call you "Black"...
LOL :D

2010-05-31T01:05:00.003+08:00

1) I need to tell you a secret look at 5
2) The answer is look at 11
3) Don't get mad look at 15
4) Calm down dont be mad look at 13
5) First look at 2
6) Dont be that angry look at 12
7) I just wanted to say I love you.
8) What I wanted to tell you is.. THE ANSWER IS ON 14
9) Be patient look at 4
10) This is the last time I'm going to do this look at 7
11) I hope you're not mad when I say this look at 6
12) Sorry look at 8
13) Dont get mad look at 10
14) I dont know how to say this but look at 3
15) You must be really mad look at number 9

2010-05-09T23:39:00.002+08:00

Once bitten twice shy..
Not going to trust anyone from now on.. Even my own family or relative...
Own cousin also wanna harm me wtf... cb knn -'-
Tmd now everyone criticize me that i have no brain, in fact i really am a fool to let everyone making use of me when i was little till now... I'm just a stupid pathetic idiot....
Maybe i'm just to good to bully ba...
FML -'-

2010-05-07T14:54:00.006+08:00

Where there's a will, there's a way...

2010-05-06T23:50:00.004+08:00

After school went to Jurong Point to meet Michelle for IP Man 2 movie..
When buying tickets at the GV saw FengDa...
The first things he say when he saw me was "hor hor caught u red handed" -.-" lols then somemore ask me a stupid question..
Fengda: you come here watch movie uh??
Me: Eh you see now i'm in the queue right??
Fengda: ya hor hahaha..
-.-" lols..
After buying the tickets, went to library awhile as the "xiaomei" wanna take something from her friend..
Went to Crystal Jade for dinner till 6.50pm movie time...
The movie was totally awesome, worth to watch :D
After the movie accompany her to kopitiam dabao food..
After that home sweet home :)
Today spend till $30 fly..

2010-05-05T23:59:00.000+08:00

Should i take english O lvl exam??? Scare cannot make it...
Up till now still don't have motivation in my study...
Really dunno what the hell am i still struggling for...
Many things had happen, one problem after another... Guess next time wont be so kind help anyone anything till getting myself into deep shit...

So my theory about you is totally right...
You & xxxxxo are now together... wish u last long with him ba...

2010-05-02T23:30:00.006+08:00

Anyway currently studying in Dover ITE... But totally no motivation to study anymore...
Feel like giving up... Totally no interest in that course at all no point carry on....
Hais really damn frustrated.... Why my life is so damn pathetic then others people??...

Up till now I'm still thinking of you....
For 1 week didn't receive your sms or call...
You just don't care how much i wanna talk to you...
Think going to lost in touch again like 1 year ago ba...
Really feel that you have a xx le ba....

2010-04-19T23:09:00.010+08:00

Yesterday 18/04/10
My birthday celebration with my cousins was enjoyable :D
Play pool at Cineleisure, my skill didn't improve at all still just a noob -.-"...
After that follow by watching movie "Monga" :D
Watched till 8pm hurried down to Bugis to meet Gerald, FengDa & Kyna as they joining us for dinner...
Went to Beach road there for steamboat...
Eaten till 10.30pm we went back home :)

I did enjoy alot & if i'm not wrong its the first time we cousins ever had a outing like this ba..
Hope they had enjoy themselves too :)

2010-04-11T18:21:00.003+08:00

为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解...
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天..
直到那一天你会发现..
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲...
曾经我以为我自己会后悔...
为你落第一滴泪...
为你做任何改变...

2010-03-01T17:23:00.003+08:00

Time will run out eventually but memories will not be forgotten...
Everything that comes eventually will be gone....
In my life, everything won't last...
Things won't turn out to be what i hoped to be, even though how hard i tried or say...
It just still the hell same...
Not gonna give a damn any more... Nothing really important or matter to me anymore...
Just gonna live my life "Emo" as it used to be ba hais...
Fxxx my pathetic life -'-.....

2010-02-23T18:37:00.004+08:00

Everynight still the same, emo, cry and felt heartbreaking whenever think of you...
Life is getting miserable day by day, really really hate the hell i'm now....
Everyday it just the same old emo songs that keep me accompany...
It seems that the distance between us are far too great, maybe someone else is entertaining u happily while i can't anymore ba..
Do you care how much my feelings for you, how much i wanted to love you?? No, i don't think you don't give a damn about it...
I'm just a pathetic failure... Future ruin, things that i really hope for cant have it..
What else ill fated things installed for me??

2010-01-23T16:03:00.006+08:00

Really really felt that u changed...
You have giving me cold attitude, do u know how hurt it is i felt??
Do you even give a damn about me now??
Do you know that everynight i insomnia is because of you??
Do you know i'm always hoping for the night to come quickly so that i could talk to you??
Do you know, u had been in my mind nonstop everyday??
I really really hate the way it is now...
I have alot of things to say to you but do you bother to hear what i wanna say??
Am i really such a failure to you??
No matter how hard i tried, it doesn't change anything???

2010-01-10T12:12:00.005+08:00

Found this on the web, most of the sentence i find it really true...

90 Things Girls Need To Know About Guys

1. Guys dont actually like sluts as much as they say they do, even though they have sex with them!
(Oh yeah… you're not "popular" if you've slept with loads of guys… you're probably just a HOE)

2. "Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" are two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.

3. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

4. Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

5. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile, it’s usually more important than the body.

6. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

7. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

8. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to; if a guy knows a girl likes him but doesn’t like her… he still wants to be the only guy she talks to.

9. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

10. Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend, unless it’s negative, then it’s cool.

11. Guys get jealous very easily, even if they don’t show it.

12. Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

13. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!... ugh... nevermind..." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

14. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like. If a guy seems cool around girls, just see how he acts in front of the girl he really likes.

15. Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.

16. Girls are guys' weaknesses.

17. Guys are very open about themselves if you just ask.

18. It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.

19. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

20. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice unless he asks for it.

21. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you. Poking, light pushing, blocking your way and random high 5’s are tell tell signs.

22. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

23. Guys will brag about anything if you don’t tell them not to.

24. Guys use words like buff or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful. If a guy uses that, he likes you, if he uses it to describe other girls, he probably just wants to sound sweet in front of you, and therefore likes you.

25. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

26. Guys love it when girls wear their clothes (jacket, hat, etc) especially if it’s a girl they like, they will often let them wear it in unreasonable circumstances…like the pouring rain.

27. Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

28. Try to be as straightforward as possible, if you like a guy, just tell him, they’ll usually be flattered. If there is something wrong with your relationship, just tell him, if hes a nice guy he’ll do his best to fix the problem.

29. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be mature and grown up.

30. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

31. No matter how much guys talk about arses and boobs, personality is key.

32. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience, your NEVER going to meet Mr. Darcy.

33. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

34. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

35. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.(yes i agree.)

36. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and talk to me." - (agree.)

37. Guys don't really have final decisions. ( same for me .)

38. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up. - (right at ya)

39. If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

40. When a guy looks at you for longer than 3 seconds, he's definitely thinking something.

41. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

42. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

43. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes(yupp).

44. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

45. Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.

46. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

47. Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more. - (absolutely true ,)

48. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them. - (true. )

49. A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

50. No guy can handle all his problems by his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

51. Not all guys are dickheads. Just because ONE is doesnt mean he represents ALL of us. Quit assuming.

52. We don't like girls who are too skinny.

53. We love it when girls talk about their boobs.

54. Always make sure you know what kind of stuff you're getting into before making out with a guy...like whether it's a one time deal or not...

55. Believe it or not shy guys are the easiest to talk to, it may not seem right but trust me they will start opening up like books after you just ask them questions about their lives and unoticabley tell them about yours.

56. When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually.

57. When a guy doesn’t touch you flirtily alot, but smiles at you a lot and makes eye contact a lot, its probably because he likes you and feels weird about touching you…but really wants to.

58. Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs.

59. Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it... it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts.

60. Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.

61. If a guy tells you to dump your boyfriend, he's being a twat, if he tells you that there is the possibility of finding someone else (HIM) if you do dump him, he probably likes you and just wants to see you happy.

62. No matter how much they complain (if they do), guys actually like it when girls lean on them.

63. Guys relate everything to sex... a joke, a slip of the tongue, a giggle, a yawn, a stretch, whatever...its stupid but true.

64. If you add a guy on myspace or Facebook and you don't know him...chances are he'll assume its because you're attracted to him.

65. If a guy acts like a dick sometimes and doesnt trust you, it might be because he has been badly hurt in the past and is afraid to open up again.

66. Just because a guy isn't holding/kissing you, doesnt mean he doesn't want to, you might just need to initiate it.

67. All guys want to make you happy (unless they're pricks), some just don't know how...so help them out.

68. Most guys just naturally prefer a girl with a bit of curve.

69. Guys are just as self conscious and insecure as girls, ;we also fear rejection, the guy who really likes you is the one who will never dare say so.

70. Boys liked to be talked to. A guy will feel more comfortable around a girl if the girl starts talking to them.

71. The way a girl moves her body can easily be much sexier than anything she says or does.

72. Girls: when you slow down with your boyfriend, make sure you give a damn good reason or we feel like its our fault because we can't comprehend that you really just want to slow down.

73. Every guy has a 'neeky' side of him. Whether it be playin games, watching movies, or playing football, but don't make fun of him if you don't like it, unless it's something you both find funny, otherwise just try and learn to like it. Don't try to change him. If he's constantly ignoring you for that thing, tell him, he'll probably try and do it less.

74. Guys will always check out other girls, even if we make it less obvious when we're around you, it does not mean we're considering leaving you for the girl on the bus. It just comes to us without thinking, so don't freak out when a guy looks at another girl. It's just nature, and we know you were oggling at the cute guy that just walked passed. And hey, guys can have female friends just like girls can have male friends, just because he gets a text from a girl does not mean he is cheating on you. But if this does make things awkward, talk about it.

75. NEVER EVER kick a guy in the balls...seriously. Not even in a fight (play or real) or argument, you can't imagine how much that hurts (don't bring up giving birth because you know it's different). The slightest kick can often have an excruciating delayed reaction...so yeah...just don't do it...please.

76. When a guy is talkin to a girl, his gut instinct is to make her laugh. Whether he is good at this or not, he will try. As a result boys can sometimes appear immature or weird when you first meet them, but they're probably just nervous so give them time and get to know them.

77. At some point a guy will try to play fight with you. There are two reasons for this:
a) Guys like to fight and show you how strong they are.
b) It gives them an excuse to touch you.

78. It is very sexy and appealing for a girl to wear a guy's boxers and shirt. That's all. We don't know why that is, but it just is.

79. Guys dont like girls who don't make an effort. If he travels four hours just to see you for three, appreciate it and don't admit you wouldn't do the same, half the time we wouldn't expect you to anyway!

80. Guys have standards for what type of girl they want to have. Every girl is the perfect girl for somebody.

81. Guys don't like it when girls amplify things. It's very annoying.

82. Even the coolest guys, worry a lot about how they come across, they are probably trying very hard to seem so cool. So don't undermine or mock a guy you like or are friends with, he might not burst into tears but it does not do wonders for his self-esteem. And if you do take the piss, make it fairly clear your joking, it will let the guy know you dont dislike him, you have a sense of humour, and its ok for him to have a come back.

83. If a guy is completely, 100% honest with you about things he's not to sure/proud of, be grateful, because it can be pretty rare.

84. Although we do relate many things to sex, not everything is literally sexual, they like just being close to you too.

85. Guys only like sluts when they're single, as soon as their in a relationship, its just annoying.

86. Guys will always be nervous about giving girls presents they like, no matter how close to or comfortable they are around the girl. Your opinion is just too important to him.

87. Guys are often terrified of a girl they like too much. The way some girls make you feel makes it impossible for you to function, the same reason a lot of guys persue strictly physical relationships.

88. Guys may not know how to handle a relationship, we admit, we're not the greatest nor the smartest at doing things right. But girls are definitely not any better, so please don't argue with us and make it seem like you know how things are supposed to be and your ways are right. It may seem logical, but frankly, it always isn't.

89. Guys love anything you wear. Really. Don't continuously ask them how you look every time you wear something.

90. THE NUMBER ONE RULE: Don't rub the lamp if you don't want the genie to come out.

2009-12-02T21:42:00.006+08:00

Exam is over..
No more school, my life goal has come to an end no more frustration or what anymore...
Gonna miss the school...
Anw, 2 problem down left 3 more to go...
Up till now, i dunno what i'm doing is correct or wrong anot...
Anw dun care about it ba...

2009-10-29T23:03:00.004+08:00

Emo emo emo that all i can do...
I'm so pathetic hais...
So many things to think and worry about... school, SNA module and etc....hais
SNA module is totally want the hell out of me -_- 1 more month till the exam dunno whether can make it anot...
Now everyday chat with her on msg but how long will it last?
Starting to hesitate whether wanna msg her anot cos don't really know am i a nuisance to her?
Sooner or later we will stop contacting each other like before when she have have bf ba....
Ha dunno really know....

2009-10-26T20:43:00.005+08:00

Hmm think it best to keep it to myself and don't say anything out ba...
I guess i just don't have the courage to say it out anymore...
Just now took a facebook quiz "What is your truly in your heart?" and my result is Darkness (Sadness or Redemption)... ahaha guess i'm more beyond then pathetic?
Think the only place i can say out my feeling and things is here ba haha
Really wanted to tell her: after all this time, she is still the one i love... but i think better not ba ha

2009-10-22T23:12:00.003+08:00

SNA module i totally give up...
It won't get into my head no matter how hard i try to fit it in.. hais suan le don't care liao
Just now watch the 9pm channel 8 show "Baby Bonus".. Got 1 part where the guy let his best friend which is a "girl" that he secretly like since childhood to stay overnight in his house cause the girl is having a quarrel with her boyfriend over something. The girl was hiding 1 corner and cried and the guy was feeling sad too as he dun wanna see her cry or sad.. whenever the girl was feeling down, the guy will go accompany her and try to cheer her up no matter what and he will help her if she needs help straight away without any hesitation .. He just want her to stay happy and that all he wanted..
When i see that part i totally feel emo -_- it somehow similar to me just that he's really noble..
Ha dunno what to blog le so shall stop here now

2009-10-22T01:18:00.003+08:00

Alright just now say wrong 1 sentence of words to someone and mistaken it that i was scolding her..
Really didn't mean it as i was joking only.. guess i overdid it alot..
Now it like giving me cold shoulder...
Hais Nice 1 Dennis yeo... u are really a stupid pathetic idiot
Maybe u should go bang wall and die better? -_-

2009-10-21T21:05:00.004+08:00

Really really i'm sick and tire of putting on a mask and 面对 people everyday.
Most of the time i feeling emo or sad.. yet i need to put on a smiling face and pretend nothing happen.
Think it time to rest my face, put down my mask and be myself for awhile..

Time is running out...
Guess i don't have much time left..
Think it time to really wake myself up and start revising my SNA
Left 5 weeks before the exam and i need to absorb all 14 chapter in time...
What should i say.. It totally impossible for me to do it.
Even teacher say that it is a killer module and i know i sure no hope can't do it at all...
But my mind is somehow telling me to wake up, don't sleep anymore and chiong for the last time...
So for this 5 weeks i will just concentrate on SNA and do nothing else.
Feelings and etc try to put it aside first ba i guess..

2009-10-20T20:45:00.006+08:00

Today oversleep.. So didn't went to morning class.
Went for afternoon class at 1pm, in the lesson was bored nothing to do -.-"
After SNA lesson went for PE at 3.30pm.
At the stadium wait for the teacher to come while watching soccer match between Macpherson ITE and dunno what ITE lol.
The Macpherson player is all so pathetic.. their goalkeeper is damn lousy.. people use hand to catch the ball but his different, he use leg to kick somemore let the opponent score in -_-"
SNW teacher was late and when she came, she say mark attendance can go off liao no pe -.-... Change to pe attire liao then say no pe.... stupid idiot zz
On the way to the mrt, the weather was freaking hot it like wanna BBQ mi -.-
Board the train, a guy sitting beside me is 1 fierce guy.. Alot of tattoo and his left arm have alot of scar... x.x Big gangster...
What fxxxxxx suay day i have -.-.. Think if i post this on www.fmylife.com sure get rank 1 for the voting LOL :D
Anw tml got SNA test think later i go revise abit ba
Hope the chapter can fit it into my brain >.<

2009-10-20T00:55:00.004+08:00

12.55pm right now..
Feel kinda emo right now...-_-"
Hais always like that... sianz
Kinda hate of myself, so useless keep on emo hahas
Anw shall stop here liao gotta sleep now maybe blog again at nite later? hahas :D

This is the song that i just now listen when i'm emoing -.-"

Passion is sweet
Love makes weak
You said you cherised freedom so
You refused to let it go

Follow your faith
Love and hate
never failed to seize the day
Don't give yourself away

Oh when the night falls
And your all alone
In your deepest sleep
What are you dreaming of

My skin's still burning from your touch
Oh I just can't get enough
I said I wouldn't ask for much
But your eyes are dangerous
So the tought keeps spinning in my head
Can we drop this masquerade
I can't predict where it ends
If you're the rock I'll crush against

Trapped in a crowd
Music's loud
I said I loved my freedom too
Now im not so sure i do

All eyes on you
Wings so true
Better quit while your ahead
Now im not so sure i am

Oh when the night falls
And your all alone
In your deepest sleep
What are you dreaming of

My skin's still burning from your touch
Oh I just can't get enough
I said I wouldn't ask for much
But your eyes are dangerous
So the thought keeps spinning in my head
Can we drop this masquerade
I can't predict where it ends
If you're the rock I'll crush against

My soul, my heart
If your near or if your far
My life, my love
You can have it all

Oh when the night falls
And your all alone
In your deepest sleep
What are you dreaming of

My skin's still burning from your touch
Oh I just can't get enough
I said I wouldn't ask for much
But your eyes are dangerous
So the thought keeps spinning in my head
Can we drop this masquerade
I can't predict where it ends
If you're the rock I'll crush against

If you're the rock i'll crush against

2009-10-19T18:51:00.010+08:00

Still thought that yesterday outing was just a dream hahas.
Today was totally moodless.. it just like my mind is still on yesterday there -_- lol
Haha anw think it time to wake up and stop dreaming about that liao.
She is so gorgeous while i'm just nothing.. The difference between me and her is just too great..
Pathetic people like me it's better to stop daydreaming ba i guess..
Sometimes, i really wish that she are a firefly that will made my night as bright as day...

When I said go I never meant away
You ought to know the freaky games we play
could you forgive and learn how to forget
hear me as I'm calling out your name

Firefly come back to me
make the night as bright as day
I'll be looking out for you
tell me that your lonely too
firefly come lead me on
follow you into the sun
that's the way it ought to be
firefly come back to me

You and me
we shared a mistery
we were so close
like honey to the bee
And if you tell me how to make you understand
I'm minor in a major kinda way

Firefly come back to me
make the night as bright as day
I'll be looking out for you
tell me that your lonely too
firefly come lead me on
follow you into the sun
that's the way it ought to be
firefly come back to me

Fly firefly through the sky
come and play with my desire
don't be long don't ask why
I can't wait another night

2009-10-18T22:05:00.007+08:00

Just came back home not long ago..
Just now went out with Michelle, Dean and xxxxxx.
Went Parklane to play pool for awhile with Michelle then after that meet xxxxxx at Plazasing StarBuck there.
Went to Orchard Shawn friend Shop there play pool again.
6+ like that Dean came and join us, play till about 7pm went to Cineleisure KFC there eat.
After that went to ION there walk walk awhile then took train back home with Michelle and her.
Before going home, accompany that toilet cleaner go Pioneer Mall Mac buy Ice cream lols

Really surprise & happy that she would come out with me.
When see her, i have alot of words wanted to say to her but i'm just lost of words... hais i'm so pathetic
When she alighted at Boon Lay somehow i got the feeling 舍不得 her to leave..
Hais wonder will there be a next time again?
Really felt quite bad and pathetic about asking her come out yet letting her feel bored...
Guess i'm a bad planner..

2009-10-18T03:49:00.005+08:00

Now it 3.48am, feel so emo right now..
My mind is still having thoughts of kyna and xx xxxx hais..
Anw today is xx xxxx b'day, hope she have a wonderful day later on and all her wishes to be granted.
Hope she stay happy everyday.
Sometime i really wish that i and her would be like last time chat and talk everyday.. But i guess time change everything and i'm getting lost of words with people day by day.
Now i would use mostly 1 word reply to people not like last time anymore..

Anw this few days had been keep on listening to the song "Ice Cream" nonstop..
It really suit my current feeling right now...

Talk to me
You speak with me
Don’t sink before you rise, baby
Don’t fade away

You hesitate
You seem to wait
For all the time we had
Feels a world away

Who’s to say, we’ll be okay
We will make it through the night
Don’t want to wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we’re the same
And I know that will never change
Look, I bought your favorite ice cream
I don’t want to see it melt away

If you walk out now
I don’t know if we could be the same
Baby, just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me

The memories
The things we did
I locked inside my heart
Where I know I won’t forget

And now, who’s to say, we’ll be okay
We will make it through the night
Don’t want to wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we’re the same
And I know that will never change
Look, I bought your favorite ice cream
I don’t want to see it melt away

If you walk out now
I don’t know if we could be the same
Baby, just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me

I want you to stay here with me

2009-10-17T23:52:00.002+08:00

Today wake up at 1+.
Sleep a total of 13 hours today -_-
Using facebook the whole day to entertain myself lol...
At 8.50pm went down to st 91 KFC to eat my dinner after that went back home.
On the way back home, saw 1 little girl sitting at 1 corner near my Blk there emo while other children playing at the fitness corner.
Felt quite pity for her cause nobody wanna go talk to her or play with her.. It like everyone abandon her on 1 side...
Anw this few days my mind can't stop thinking of this 2 person -_-...
1 is kyna while another 1 is xx xxxx... hais wonder what wrong with me
Hmm few more mins is xx xxxx b'day le
Think i gonna emo soon -_- so i shall stop here

2009-10-16T15:18:00.002+08:00

Yesterday
Went to school as usual.
Got surprise practical test but manage to pass it :D
School end at 4.30pm hurried went to Simei MRT station and rush down to Clementi bus interchange to meet Gerald and Jun Jie as yesterday is Gerald B'day.
Went to Turf City Chong Pang steamboat to eat lol.
At about 8pm He Gang came and join us.
We at there eat and slack till 10.25pm then took the shuttle bus back to Clementi while He Gang drive back home >.<
Reached Clementi change took bus 185 back home...
Damn jealous that He Gang have his own car liao, wish that his car will be mine :D

Today
Went to school and was quite late but nvm.
Lesson was damn bored nothing to do >.<>
If i know de hua i would not have come i rather at home sleep..
Release at 10.30am went to cafe 1 with Joey they to eat breakfast after that went back home.
Quite piss off with my hair now...
Totally chui, just now go Pioneer Mall cut my hair then the person cut my hair till damn chui....
He like no skill sia people use to cut hair but he different cut and pull zzz wtf...
Think i dun wanna go out for 1 week ba.
Wait till my hair grow back abit then say :D

2009-10-12T22:54:00.004+08:00

Today wake up at 6.50am..
Went to prepare till 7.45am then head out to school.
Reached class and the first thing kyna came to me and bully me -_- ask i suan her on the blog the other day lol...
Lesson was quite boring as we doing practice on using Red Hat Linux..
Release at 11++ so went to cafe 1 eat lunch but no seat...
Then Joey they all keep dragging at outside cafe 1 near CVC on whether or not to go Simei eat lunch... then DM came and caught me say my hair long must cut -'- all thanks to them for dragging zzz
After that went to Simei Burger King to eat... $7.50 like just fly away :(
Intended to speand $2~$3 only and yet thanks to them.....
Really so damn unlucky today hais -_-"

Sometime whenever i look at Kyna from far my mind would think, after this year what will it be??
Will we see each other ever again?
Hais gonna miss her...

2009-10-10T21:53:00.003+08:00

Today have been using the facebook the whole day lol so bored -_-
At 8pm went to st 92 S11 coffee shop to eat my dinner with Gerald after that slack awhile then go home lol

Quite piss off with some people...
Keep giving me attitude zzz
Made me irritated...

2009-10-09T23:51:00.005+08:00

Today wake up at 11.45am, was damn tire -_-
Went wash up after that use come play facebook game awhile and maple LOL
1 month never play maple only alot of my buddy all change their attitude zzz.
At 4.30pm meet Gerald at Pioneer Mall traffic light there then went to Gek Poh to buy my slipper lols.
After that went to his house slack and eat dinner.
At 10pm went back home that all.

2009-10-08T20:48:00.019+08:00

Yesterday
Went to Henderson Wave and walk all the way to Vivo with Gerald.
Was quite tire as we walk for very long.
Reached vivo went to slack as usual then went to arcade play Time Crisis 2 and my skill drop -_- in the 1st stage lost 2 live....
After that went to Hawker center to eat dinner order 1 bowl of Ban Mian yum yum dam nice haha after that went to Best Danki to play PS3 and Xbox awhile then took bus 30 back home..

Today
Woke up at 3+pm as i slept at 4am.
Using com the whole day surfing randomly nonstop hahas

Feel that nowadays i don't really like to talk much.
Sometime don't feel like opening my mouth at all.
Sometime when people talk to me i will feel irritated..
Just wanna emo in 1 corner that all

2009-10-06T23:57:00.003+08:00

Yesterday went to block 442 there wait for that stupid bastards job agent...
When i reach there i call her to tell her that i reached..
When she pick up she ask who am i after that she said she make a mistake no more job available for me zzzzzzzz wtf ask me to come then u say no more job wth trick me zzz...
Was damn piss off so i walked all the way home... until my leg skin peel off...
Hais really damn unlucky.... D:

Anyway today went to Jurong East swimming complex with Gerald to swim lol
After that went to his house eat dinner as his mum cooked my share
Stay at his house till 8.50pm then went back home.
Reached home watched channel 8 Baby Bonus till 10pm then switch channel to okto to watch Destination Truth (Burrunjor & Cermai Cave) it was damn nice and i will continue to watch it from now on :D

2009-10-05T17:28:00.002+08:00

Later will be working...
I wonder what job will i be doing in the factory later.
First time doing night shift think gonna be okay ba hahas.
By the way really hate that stupid c'b mother of mine.
She is such a bloody old bitch zz, take my crab stick and other thing to cook without my permission somemore she still dare to say it not her faultz zzzz -'-
Nb hope she and my father disappear from my life soon..
Really can't take it anymore...
Gonna go prepare to go out now so i shall end it here

2009-10-04T23:20:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was Mid-Autumn Festival, went to my grandma house there.
Only 5 cousin was there, Shawn, Elieen, Evon didn't come.. Quite long didn't see Shawn and Elieen.
At there we watch Transformers 2 DVD & Terminator Salvation till midnight 12+..
About 1+am we went back home by Joseph Dad car.
The whole time at there i can't take my eyes off Regine..
I wonder why hahas

2009-10-01T02:41:00.011+08:00

The Chalet was totally speechless...
Worst then the previous chalet -_-
Staying 1 night on the 2nd night all went back home.
Really was bored at there hais..
All i can say is all human are weak but they always put a brave front or acting they know everything when they are just pretending..
Just like Jinsia, he dunno how to cook rice yet he pretend he know.. In the end the rice was hard to consume -_-"
At the chalet watched 溏心風暴 (Heart Of Greed) last episode, it was good + all of us gather and watch the show together hahas
Hmm anyway nowadays i'm getting lazier to blog lol
So i will try to post 2 time a week ba..

2009-09-27T21:34:00.002+08:00

Last Monday, went for the class chalet.
The chalet was totally bored the hell out of me... -.-"
Nothing to do at there, have been rotting for the whole chalet.. no activities at all..
This chalet is totally sucks -_-
Anyway tomorrow will be having another chalet hope will not be rotting at there throughout the chalet again ba..

2009-09-21T01:02:00.004+08:00

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2009-09-19T22:23:00.004+08:00

At Gerald house right now.
Want to thank Gerald mum for inviting mi to her house for dinner.
Felt quite emo right now, as i'm slacking nothing to do....
Tommorrow is sunday think gonna rot at home doing nothing ba as i just finish reading Inuyasha whole manga series..
2 more days to the chalet quite looking forward to it, hope it will be fun ba.
Soon gonna graduating..
Gonna miss my class hais.
Really wishes that time would stop now or move slowly..
Hope that will have a wonderful memories with them on the chalet ba although kyna won't be going..

2009-09-18T23:22:00.001+08:00

Today went down to Tampiness CC to play Badminton with Joey, Jun Liang, Gary, Ebian, Jinsia and Jian Da.
On the way there, i can't find the place as i been there before.
Searching the place till started to rain -_- but in the end still found the place haha.
Have quite abit of fun playing badminton though.
At 4pm went to have my lunch at the nearby coffee shop, at there i left my $1 on the table and forget to take..... Anyway never mind
After eating i took cab with Jian Da, Jinsia, Jun liang to Bedok MRT and went back home.
Next monday will be having a chalet..
Think at that time i going to dye my hair ba haha

2009-09-17T02:26:00.003+08:00

It 2.26am right now quite tire but yet can't get to sleep..
Sometime really miss her xx xxxx although last year she made me went through hell..
Whenever think of her my heart somehow ache and feel emo.
It been 2 years since i left secondary school and yet somehow my feeling for you is still there...
I tried to talk to you but somehow i can't communicate with you, it seem like you have changed.
Sometime i really wish that you would be like last time but it can't
Time change everything right?
Hahas i will try my best to let go the feeling for you ba..

2009-09-14T19:47:00.001+08:00

Last friday went to Jian Da Sis birthday private chalet at CAAS bungalow near Pasir Ris Park there.
Had quite alot of fun although when winning mahjong no money get -__-
Went back home at saturday night, really wish that can stay 1 more night there.. i really like the place very much..

Hmm anyway let talk about today.
Morning was late for school by 30min but when i reach the class the lesson just started so the teacher never mark me late haha.
Release at 12pm went to cafe 1 with the same old group to eat after that went back home alone ass they went to watch movie.
That all for today.

2009-09-08T02:02:00.000+08:00

Feel so emo and piss off with myself right now.
Wonder why i am so different from others?
Why is my life so ill fated??
Hais, really really tire of it.
I had it, can't take it anymore...
Really wish that i didn't born into this world

2009-09-07T22:34:00.000+08:00

Sunday
Went out with Jun Jie and Gerald.
Meet them at my house downstairs then after that went down to Vivo.
Went to the Sentosa information counter to apply for job.
After that went to slack at the Daiso there.
Then Jun Jie friends come Hui Ling and Christina.
At 8pm went to KFC with Gerald to have our dinner while Jun Jie and the girls eat at Kopitiam
About 9 meet them again to slack lols.
Then 10pm took train went back home.

2009-09-04T13:40:00.005+08:00

Thursday
Yesterday went to CMPB building at Depot Road for NS medical check up alone....
At there it such a waste of time....
The IQ test have alot of question, it was like about 200+ question total... Do till fed up..
Finish everything at 4.30pm nothing to do so i walk from Depot road to Alexandra Arch Bridge, into Forest Walk and reached Telok Blangah Hill Park was damn tire and weird no people at all de.. only walk pass a few people when on the way to the park..
After that is Henderson Wave Bridge then to the Mount Faber Hill wa that time was about 5+ sun is going to set soon yet i haven reach Habourfront, i thought i was lost so i hurried walk up to the Mount Faber and walk down to a road very long way then to some sort of forest stair quite creepy to me cause no one was there and it was like quite weird :x and FINALLY reached Habourfront -_- phew
Went to Habourfront Hawker center to eat dinner after that to Vivo seaview there emo awhile then took bus 30 back home.
Hmm think it 2nd time i have done such a thing..
Last time was sec3 that time was from Bukit Batok walk all the way to Jurong West which is where i am staying lols.
Think i'm weird ba haha

2009-09-02T22:52:00.000+08:00

Today went to school, in the class feel that i'm a total stranger to everyone...
This module totally is harder then before... the worst module i ever had
Sometime really feel that i have chooses wrong course... hais
Hope i next year can go Office skill ba.
Anyway tomorrow is the day -__- NS check up hais sian.

2009-09-01T15:01:00.003+08:00

Today 1 whole day raining, the weather was so cold it just so perfect for me haha.
Gonna rot at home again i guess.
Haha anyway i dunno what to write anymore so i shall end it here ^^
By the way, Happy Teachers Days to all teachers ^^
Cya

2009-08-30T16:14:00.002+08:00

Here i am to update this little blog of mine ^^
Hmm.. Yesterday had a dream about kyna hahas, anyway don't wish to elaborate further :x
Nowadays really feel that my life is so bored nothing to do, always wasting my time away at home.
What entertainment can i have to entertain myself?...
Really can't think out of something.
Anyway 4 more days to my NS Medical Check Up hope nothing goes wrong on that days.

2009-08-28T18:33:00.000+08:00

Yesterday my FYP presentation was totally suck thanks to Jinsia zzz
Presentation time is 9.15am then he told us is 10.15am zz
In the morning, when we heard that is 9.15am we hurried rush to school and we start the Presentation at 9.50am till 10am zz 10 min only wtf.. anw don't care about it liao
Today no school for me as i have finish the FYP haha so rot at home.
Nothing write le so i shall end here

2009-08-19T23:48:00.001+08:00

Today wake up at 10am... was totally hell late zz
Went prepare then eat breakfast then head to school.
Reached school at 1.10pm went to cafe 2 find Jun Liang there all and they had eaten lols so i was the only 1 eating at there & DM came catch us cause they play poker and i never wear layer...
After that went up to class, slacked as usual feel like sleeping lols
Self release at 4.30pm went to Co-Op shop buy Meiji milk chocolate bar then went back home

2009-08-18T23:31:00.000+08:00

Today had weird dream again Sky appear in my dream LOL.... -_-"
Think i better sleep early from now on if not later have this type dreams again :x
Woke up at 9.40am was late again, went to prepare then head out at 10am.
Took train down to Simei, reached Simei at 11.10am and it was break time in school liao so i went to EastPoint KFC to have my lunch alone...
After eating was about to head to school then saw Amira and Saidatu at Mr Bean there eating so went for them to eat finish then accompany them to Pet Safari awhile then went to school together.
Reached class doing nothing.. so bored at there slack till 3pm went to the House of Lobster there to take our class graduation photo.. hais time flies how i wish it would just stop for awhile, gonna miss this class :(
After taking, went for PE till 5pm then went to Cafe 1 eat 2 Roti Prata with egg ^.^
On the way, saw Qiaoen at the forum there walking lols but didn't call her cause not use to be so close liao so mai call her ba anw she come to my school also never tell me lols
After that took train back home.

2009-08-13T21:58:00.003+08:00

Woke up at 9am..
Had a weird dream about a girl but i don't who is she yet she make me cry....
When wake up felt so emo she totally make me change attitude towards abit.
Reached school at 11.15am went up to class n as usual nothing to do slacked till 12pm went to cafe 1 to have lunch, then at 1.30pm went up to class again.
School ended at 4pm, took bus 31 to Tampiness Mall to watch Jack Neo movie "Where got ghost?" with Joey group.
The show was damn funny but quite lame...
After the movie took train with Jian Da & Jun hao back home..

2009-08-12T22:07:00.001+08:00

Woke up at 10 am today, prepare then eat my so call lunch n head out to school at 11am..
Reached school was damn bored nothing to do...-_-"
Slacked till 1pm went for lunch break at cafe 1 after that at 2pm went up to class...
Rotted at there till 5pm then went back home..
In the train back to Pioneer station, no seat at all n so many people squeeze together zzzzz fucking hate it...
Reached home not feeling so well so slept on the sofa till 8pm then went up..
Now feeling better liao, that all

2009-08-09T23:30:00.002+08:00

Today is national day yet i still at home rot....
Don't know what to write liao so i shall end it here..
Lastly Happy 44th Birthday Singapore ^.^

2009-08-08T23:48:00.001+08:00

Rot at home the whole day, surfing net...
At 8pm went to Pioneer Mall to cut my hair after that went back home...
Now going to play maple liao so i shall end it here
I think i have change to a 100% selfish person always think about myself don't care about others..
Maybe it the best way for me ba

2009-08-06T19:40:00.001+08:00

Wake up at 7.15am, went to prepare then head out to school.
At Pioneer station was damn alot of people so took train to Joo koon then rebound back then at Chinese Garden don't what happen the train keep stopping & delay about 20min zzzz made me reach Simei faster rush to school zzz fuck.
Reached school went up to class straight away, at there sibei du lan with Maurice keep ording around then i scold him then he shut up -__- hum ji kia ....
Went in to presentation to present our project and it turn out totally kns keep kena tio suan of the slide zzzz
That why i hate doing group project it totally suck man...
At 12pm went to cafe 2 to have lunch then at 1pm went up to rot again...
4pm went back home that all..
And lastly my blogskin is done haha, quite satisfied with the skin